Linda Esser

A Safe Yoga Home

Posted by on May 4, 2015 in death, disability, Emotion, Faster EFT, healing, heart, Linda Esser, Recovery, Spirit, Tapping | 0 comments

A Safe Yoga Home

I grab the yoga mat I inherited from Linda Esser and head out the door in her yoga pants. I only used them for lounging until now. It feels weird to be in public in lounge pants. The Heart Center Studio is my third ever Yoga class. It’s my first time to experience it as a blend of body-mind with meditative reading and music. A myriad of physical and emotional responses arise. I’m glad Jennifer starts us with the Child’s Pose that comes naturally though I never learned it before. It’s interesting that some personal intuitive practices are Yoga. Jennifer reads beautifully inspiring words. What if our religion was each other If our practice was our life If prayer, our words What if the temple was the Earth If forests were our church If holy water—the rivers, lakes, and ocean What if meditation was our relationships If the teacher was life If wisdom was self-knowledge If love was the center of our being. ~ Ganga White This is what I imagined yoga would be, the integration of physical and spiritual practices. I was inspired by the movie AWAKE: The Life of Yogananda. It gave me a better understanding. Yoga is about preparing the body for meditation, to become a clear channel for Divine Inspiration and finding my personal guru within. Waves of thoughts and emotions roll through me. Jennifer suggests a return to the Child’s Pose if needed. Ah! Safety is always encouraged. I watch and imitate as best I can, but don’t stay in sync with the class. During a movement she says, “…if it is available to you today…” and likewise honors herself. As my face comes downward on Linda’s mat I notice an automatic thought flash. Linda loved yoga, but it didn’t heal her, she still died at 50. Tears spurt out my eyes and I mentally tap, embracing and releasing the emotions. Jennifer names and guides us into familiar poses. I learned them with another friend on her Wii in 2010 when she could still stand, albeit wobbly. Now she is confined to a wheelchair. On a recent visit she spelled out on her alphabet board “Diagnosis Terminal.” Yoga didn’t heal her or Steve Jobs either. What else could I do for three years disabled except become body-mind aware while living from a reclining position? My awareness now is on grateful amazement. Years after recovery I am able to flow with Yoga for 45 minutes before I need a break to check in with myself. I’m here to learn Yoga because I’ve healed with the mind-body work of FasterEFT. I can integrate yoga with my skills and go deeper to release mental/emotional connections that arise. A large plaque in the corner reads, “I will hold myself to a standard of Grace not perfection.” I feel fresh air blowing in and from a different position in the room notice the five-panel mural stretched across the wall. Each panel is integrated with a beautiful image of an expansive tree against my beloved colors. It reminds me of the Tree Metaphor we use in FasterEFT. Jennifer invites the class back to the Child’s Pose, and I notice it’s safe to return to my mat. I continue with what feels safe but expands my body-mind-spirit. The grateful joy that spontaneously washed over me near the beginning of class returns for an encore. Finally, I have found my way to a safe yoga home. http://www.heartcenterstudio.com © Copyright B. Grace Jones 2015 All Rights Reserved....

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Jump

Posted by on Mar 23, 2014 in blogging, disability, healing, humor, Linda Esser, Recovery, Tapping, trauma | 0 comments

I cleared my calendar for another escape, diversion and distraction. I needed to pull me out of my isolation and loneliness so I planned a trip to Kansas City to connect with other practitioners and friends. Almost as soon as I committed to the trip I didn’t want to go. It was not resistance, it was the thought that popped in, I didn’t even think about how I could clear my calendar and spend that block of time writing my book. The book was still here quietly saying, “But what about me?” There’s the metaphor and I create my pattern with the book, too. Now the book feels left out, left behind and not included in my plans or life. From incidental information I’ve gotten from others, each piece was another grain of sand to tip the scales. My session with Pam, moving my office upstairs and the quote Cheryl posted by A.M. Homes, “If you don’t write the book you have to write, everything breaks.” When Robin and I talked, his words were like my soul speaking to me directly and there was no denial, just pure recognition of the truth that will set me free. I’m done dangling my toe in the water. It’s time to jump into the deep water and ride the waves of whatever comes up. Keep my spirit in present time, see the flip side, match the frequency and ride with it instead of resisting and fighting against it. The time is now to jump in fearlessly with my whole being, or tap through the fear. Lying in bed this morning I saw it arise, noticed it, allowed it like a wave I’m bobbing on top of and rode it without resistance. I allow it to roll on through and beyond, while I shift into the calm waters without fear or resistance of the next wave. I can do it. I have no more excuses. I don’t think I will do frequent blog posts, unless they are simple and quick. Just one now to say, “Got it, on to the book for now, see ya later, love ya lots.” I learned in the last two months to practice frequent breaks of fun and laughter to pull myself out of negative trances in other ways than tapping. This is the piece that Linda missed. Her style of tapping was serious and I modeled that. It’s time to lighten up and laugh more at the trances this monkey still allows. Stop it! Shift it the instant I notice. My mind/body already knows everything unconsciously that I need in order to succeed. It’s a matter of being still and silent long enough to hear my own inner wisdom. I need to metaphorically sit at the blank page, with the cursor blinking and simply wait until the answer or inspiration comes. Stop pushing myself through it, just live in a state of allowing the flow to come and go. Be with and in the process, be the process. Allow the book and me to be integrated in the work and congruent with the healing process however it needs to happen. I healed from the years that created the disability, now it is time to heal from the trauma of disability, because I know how and I can. It is time to boldly go where no woman has gone before. Be the woman and go deep inside to do the work. The Universe set me up in Divine Order. I’ve made the decision; I am committed to do whatever it takes. This is my Soul Light Purpose on...

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Don’t Hold Yourself Back

Posted by on Mar 1, 2014 in cancer, CFS, death, Depression, disability, EBV, Emotion, Family, Faster EFT, Fibromyalgia, healing, Japan, Linda Esser, Mono, pace, pain, Recovery, Robert Smith, Tapping, trauma, travel | 0 comments

Watching Tiffany and Heather is great for a lot of people, but there will be some who cannot relate to their stories when they can relate to others or mine. My parents were mostly calm, loving, supportive and encouraging. My childhood traumas were not so dramatic. There was no alcohol or drugs, no death threats or rape. Still, somehow I picked up some patterns of belief and behavior that led to similar symptoms showing up in my body. I know there are thousands like me who will not be able to relate to extremely violent childhoods. Those are the people I hope to reach. The world needs to hear my voice and the others. The Universe spoke to me through a man on the Friends dance floor, “Don’t hold yourself back.” I already have whatever I need within me to get this done. The Universe has set me up for it. The time is now. Set my intention, keep moving through it, do whatever it takes, tap through every resistance or fear, alternate with play and fun to keep pulling myself out of the past muck that I must write about in order to help others. Then I can use my book as support to help my clients when they get frustrated after tapping for six months and they aren’t completely healed yet. Neither was I? I was just beginning to have abilities to do things like paint for two hours in my kitchen. After six months of daily tapping I began practitioner training. I still had to pace myself carefully, tapping my way through fatigue and pain that still lingered. At first, the weekly trips from Kansas to OKC were four days. I kept an easy pace with a day on either side to relax, have fun or work for Robert before and after classes. By the time I finished training six months later, I could drive down the same day for the Monday night class, spend one night and drive 250 miles home after class on Tuesday night. It was amazing to me that I had changed that much in six months and by then I had been tapping for a year. I slowly increased my work hours until I was virtually working full time at building my FasterEFT practice. It was more than another year after that before I discontinued my disability benefits. I recently helped a client make a lot of big changes in her life. After tapping for six months she was frustrated that she’s not completely symptom-free yet. She is focused on what she can’t do instead of all the amazing progress. To those who are impatient with their progress, I suggest let go of the expectations you have of getting a certain outcome by a certain time. I never set that up in my head so my speed of progress was never a disappointment. I stayed in the present moment of the progress I had made, always practicing gratitude for how far I had come from where I began. I had no one to compare myself to, which I can see now was a real blessing. I was just forging ahead like a pioneer, tapping my way through everything I didn’t want and continued to practice gratitude every step of the way for each little improvement. Not everyone will heal as fast as Heather and Tiffany, and they are not completely healed yet either. They are still working on stuff. Yes FasterEFT can create fast changes but sometimes changes can be very slow or even invisible. You may not even know something...

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Keep It Simple

Posted by on Feb 24, 2014 in blogging, death, Emotion, Faster EFT, healing, Linda Esser, Recovery, Spirit, Tapping, travel | 0 comments

Saturday I knew I wanted to pack and leave OKC as soon as possible so I did. I played with ideas in my head about what to do when I get home? I thought I still needed to sit with myself. As soon as I got home to an empty house all I knew is that I didn’t want to sit here alone yet. I had just spent four hours driving alone. Even after a week full of socializing and helping people I didn’t feel an intense need for silence or alone time. If Mother were here it would be different, but she’s not. I think it affected me more on this return than in October. I also noticed I felt Linda’s physical absence and spiritual presence more at this seminar than before. Unloading and carrying clothes up the front steps I heard a vehicle stop in the street behind me. It was my neighbor and friend who called out “Welcome home Grace.” How sweet! I called out, “Thank you and thanks for everything,” since she had watched the house. It was after 5:30 and I knew they were headed off to do something fun on a Saturday evening and that’s what I want to do. As soon as everything was in the house, I did not unpack. I tapped a little, but knew I just wanted to be with my hometown friends. I went to the phone and kept calling friends until I found one available to meet for a visit at Mulready’s. We sat and talked for almost two hours. We shared where we each are on our spiritual paths. It’s about being the observer of the creator; notice how we create what we don’t want. Then just stop, shift and begin to focus on the good stuff and create what we do want. We agree we are on parallel paths practicing the same concepts using different skills to arrive at the same resolution. I haven’t posted to my blog for two days now. I need the break. I’ m not sure I want to spend my day that way. I will stay in the flow of the moment. Maybe it is time to return to the book and slow down on the blog, or somehow figure out how to do both. Everything is in Divine Order and I needed this last two months to shift from thinking that I need to use new fancy techniques in order to heal and help others heal. I don’t. A client/practitioner helped me see that, too. They had a lot of sessions with other practitioners during the week and said that even with all the fancy stuff others use, the deepest changes were with me using the basics and cleaning up all the sub-modalities. That is the piece I need before I return to the book. Just keep it simple. The basics are what healed me. If you know correctly how to use the basics, don’t worry about the fancy stuff. I have returned to the basics for my self-healing. Thanks to Eric Robins for the reminder. — © Copyright B. Grace Jones 2014 All Rights Reserved....

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My Internal Dialogue Creates My Life

Posted by on Feb 24, 2014 in Emotion, entertainment, Faster EFT, Fibromyalgia, healing, Linda Esser, pace, Recovery, Robert Smith, Tapping | 0 comments

Friday was wonderful and full of proof for how my outer world shifts when I change my internal dialogue and perspective. It can be as simple as changing clothes or looking through different glasses. When I change what I hold from lifelong patterns of belief and behavior and how I represent my world, everything and everyone in my world seems to change. It was still the same room, same situation, same people, the only thing that changed is what I was do inside myself. When I arrived two people asked if they could catch a ride with me to Friends Club in the evening. People came up to ask me for photos, Deirdre asked to talk to me, then invited me to Ireland to stay in her house. Another person asked me to do sessions and more people want to talk to me. While we talked someone asked I if we would tap on him since his tapping partners left. That was fun and I got borrowed benefits of feeling connected to Linda Esser. When I observed one tapping on the other, again I got borrowed benefits in a metaphor about publishing my book. Very cool! I almost got up to do the Quick Tap skit. I had to tap on the fear of doing it. When I finally decided on what to do and took action, we couldn’t find the musical intro, so I let it go. Maybe I will prepare it for the next time. The important part was my willingness to participate, put myself out there, have fun and be silly. When it was time to pack up all the products there were plenty of other helpers so I gave directions to the restaurant and club. Robert had forgotten to announce that people could take his charts and he said the trance monkey is still here. I said I want it. As he walked away after signing it, he invited me to come visit after they move into the new house. Sweet! I knew the charts would only be thrown away, so I gathered the entire set from this training. At Friends Club I watched the newbies taking pix with others and it didn’t matter if they wanted me included or not. Out of the blue, someone said to me they understand the pattern of the pioneers who lay the groundwork and don’t get the recognition they deserve. They build a solid foundation then the newcomers arrive, build it big and get the glory. I said I am totally okay and I’ve made peace with it. I know that my part and position in this community is solid. The proof is on my YouTube channel with the dates of my first posted videos. Also on FaceBook there is my photo with Linda and Robert when he certified us as the first Masters in 2010. Some newcomers have seen my videos, but it doesn’t matter if they know the role I have played. I know and no one can take it away. It was cool to see three women healing from Fibromyalgia dancing freely and having so much fun. One thought she would never dance again. One danced a bit in class last October, but this was the first time she really let it rip on a dance floor. It was great fun to watch. Friends Club was the place I danced for the first time again in 2010. Now I let it rip more every time I go. I kept dancing and dancing and many waited for me to finish so they would be sure to...

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Back To Basics

Posted by on Feb 19, 2014 in CFS, disability, entertainment, Faster EFT, Fibromyalgia, healing, humor, journal, Linda Esser, Recovery, Robert Smith, Tapping, trauma, YouTube | 0 comments

The sweet zone was elusive, but I’m still good. Yesterday I was tired, bored and sleepy. My zone was mostly neutral. I noticed a couple of judgments and tapped on them. I may need to start doing my own seminars again. I may get distracted telling my stories, but no more and maybe less than Robert does his. He loves to tell his stories. They illustrate many good examples, which help people learn, but one may lead to another and another. Then he remembers one of Deirdre’s and has her come up to share her stories and one leads to another. What they do is wonderful, and very entertaining but takes a long time. Derren Brown’s video on Fear & Faith about the placebo effect was wonderful. My favorite part of class was the demos and prop suggestions for de-fractionation, even though Deirdre said those are Level 3 techniques. I de-fractionate in all my sessions, but I get bored using the same techniques and want to explore new, fun ways to de-fractionate. I am brainstorming for how I will do my seminars differently. I want to add more humor to my presentations and I need to practice that. I will give more opportunities for hands-on tapping and students connecting with others to build relationships and find tapping buddies. I can teach others how to heal themselves and to help others heal even if they aren’t certified. Before I showed up for my first training class in 2009, it took a masterful six months of self-healing to get there. What healed me was my daily practice of the basic techniques. I mostly tapped on raw physical sensations, negative thoughts, beliefs and emotions. I didn’t look for memories, but waited to do those in sessions with Linda. If a memory popped in and I was in a full blow emotion, then I tapped and flipped it, but I didn’t go looking for them. I didn’t need any of the props or new techniques to heal me. The basics work perfectly. This week I have gone back to the basics I used in the beginning. I continue to tap on myself using the global phrases and let it go. It works and I don’t need to add the layers of meaning and emotional trauma in order to...

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