Emotion

It Changes You — Dirty Kanza 200

Posted by on Jun 1, 2014 in blogging, disability, Emotion, entertainment, healing, Japan, Nature, pace, pain, stress, trauma, travel | 0 comments

It Changes You — Dirty Kanza 200

Vibrating with raw energy, enthusiasm and excitement, the registrants for the Dirty Kanza 200 pack into The Granada in Emporia. This is the World’s Premier Gravel Grinder bicycle race right here in my hometown with over 1200 riders from 45 states and 7 countries. After my first half hour as a Gravel Groupie Volunteer, it is time for the riders’ meeting. There is a documentary video/slide show feeding more inspiration into the theater occupants. After all the photos and descriptions of riders grinding over 200 miles of gravel, the show ends with three words across a Flint Hills panorama, “It...

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Shining Light On The Darkness

Posted by on Mar 10, 2014 in Depression, Emotion, entertainment, healing, Recovery | 1 comment

Thank God for the lovely outpouring of birthday wishes on Thursday. I was still in a depressive funk, but I continued to go through the motions of celebrating in every way The Universe provided. I watched the negativity in my thoughts and allowed them to play out long enough to realize it is nothing I would fully buy into, so why do I allow myself to play with it? It’s a waste of time and not doing my body or me any good. Whatever the thoughts are they register in my body and I don’t need those kinds of physical responses. I’m grateful for the blitz of well wishes on FaceBook. I read every...

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Mindful Love After Love

Posted by on Mar 5, 2014 in Depression, disability, Emotion, entertainment, Faster EFT, Fibromyalgia, healing, Mono, pain, Recovery, Tapping, YouTube | 0 comments

Sunday I was inspired to look for a mindfulness video to give my new clients. I need to introduce them to observing their thoughts before we start. That is part of how my mind was set up to help me heal so fast when Linda first taught me to tap. I found several videos but was browsing to see which was best for beginners. I was triggered to tears for an unknown reason by a short video of Jon Kabat-Zinn. Maybe it was because I saw the story of how he began the Mindfulness program in 1979 and how it progressed. It was astounding that when Zinn asked the medical staff what is the patient’s...

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Don’t Hold Yourself Back

Posted by on Mar 1, 2014 in cancer, CFS, death, Depression, disability, EBV, Emotion, Family, Faster EFT, Fibromyalgia, healing, Japan, Linda Esser, Mono, pace, pain, Recovery, Robert Smith, Tapping, trauma, travel | 0 comments

Watching Tiffany and Heather is great for a lot of people, but there will be some who cannot relate to their stories when they can relate to others or mine. My parents were mostly calm, loving, supportive and encouraging. My childhood traumas were not so dramatic. There was no alcohol or drugs, no death threats or rape. Still, somehow I picked up some patterns of belief and behavior that led to similar symptoms showing up in my body. I know there are thousands like me who will not be able to relate to extremely violent childhoods. Those are the people I hope to reach. The world needs to hear...

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What To Do Now?

Posted by on Feb 28, 2014 in Depression, disability, drugs, entertainment, Faster EFT, Fibromyalgia, healing, QA, Robert Smith, Tapping, YouTube | 0 comments

Unexpectedly time has opened up on my calendar. I watch my thoughts around it. I see how old patterns of belief want to grab hold of it and make it into a worry. I know everything is in Divine Order. I have observed the ebb and flow of clients and it’s part of the natural rhythm. This is my opportunity to do some things I have put off or resisted. I used to work on more projects when I had less time than I’ve had recently. I have very little interest in sitting home alone anymore. I want to get out and mix with the rest of the world, even if it is on FaceBook. I’m browsing there again. I can...

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Keep It Simple

Posted by on Feb 24, 2014 in blogging, death, Emotion, Faster EFT, healing, Linda Esser, Recovery, Spirit, Tapping, travel | 0 comments

Saturday I knew I wanted to pack and leave OKC as soon as possible so I did. I played with ideas in my head about what to do when I get home? I thought I still needed to sit with myself. As soon as I got home to an empty house all I knew is that I didn’t want to sit here alone yet. I had just spent four hours driving alone. Even after a week full of socializing and helping people I didn’t feel an intense need for silence or alone time. If Mother were here it would be different, but she’s not. I think it affected me more on this return than in October. I also noticed I felt Linda’s physical...

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